Inspiration

It sure has been awhile since I’ve blogged and there have been a lot of incredible changes over the past couple of months, so let me fill you in on what’s been going on in my life, not only with my heart, but also with my career.

I left IDHS back in February and took a job with the Virginia Department of Emergency Management, as an Exercise Project Coordinator. I was sad to leave my friends and family in Indiana and Ohio, but I couldn’t let this opportunity slip by. I’ve been here now for almost 3 months and I couldn’t be happier. I was afraid embarking on this journey by myself, being 9 hours away from family and not knowing a single person in VA was scary; however, it was the best decision I could have made. My job is absolutely wonderful and I’m blessed everyday with having such an incredible opportunity. Also,  I’m living my dream by being in hurricane country and I’m so anxious for hurricane season to start.

Now, let’s talk about my health. Overall, I’m pretty healthy.  I haven’t had any heart episodes since December, so that in itself is a blessing. I’m feeling wonderful. I’ve got to admit, I’ve fallen off the workout wagon; however, I’ve joined the local YMCA and determined to get back on regular workout schedule.  I worked so hard on getting my heart back to where it needs to be and I will not let laziness take over.  My heart doesn’t deserve that.

Since I moved to VA I had to find a new cardiologist and for some reason this was hard for me to do. It wasn’t hard finding a cardiologist it was hard forcing myself to find one.  I kept putting it off but I finally found one and I actually have a checkup on Tuesday. This will be an 18 month checkup since the heart attack, but I’m sure it’ll involve more than just a normal checkup because it’s with a new doctor.  I’m not going to lie, I’m already nervous about it.  I remember when I was looking for a cardiologist and I had the conversation with my dad as to why I kept putting it off.  He told me that I was just scared and he was right. Seeing the cardiologist is just a reminder to me that I did have a heart attack. I know I’m a pretty tough and hard-headed woman but I do have my weakness; constant fear of that it could happen again.  Although, I’m determined to do everything in my power, may it be medication, diet, or exercise to make sure my health is as good as it can be.  I guess I need to realize a cardiologist is just another tool in making sure everything is on the right track to achieve the goal of making my heart the healthiest it can be.  I’m sure that I’ll have some anxiety on Tuesday before my appointment but I know everything will be okay. I’ll put the faith in the man upstairs and he’ll guide me through it.

I find it tough trying to write the next part of tonight’s blog. I want to share with you all story about a girl named, Liz, who has became my inspiration over the past month.  Liz is from my hometown (St. Marys, OH) and is 20 years old. Exactly one month ago, Liz underwent heart transplant surgery.  She has had many ups and downs since the surgery but continues to fight each and every day with her new heart. You can find her story at the following website: http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/elizabethsampson/journal

When I found out about Liz, I was in complete shock. I knew she had a heart condition but didn’t know she needed a transplant. I felt so much sadness and fear for her.  I know what I went through with having a heart attack and I couldn’t even wrap my mind around what she was going through. To be honest, I also had a whole lot of anger. Why in the world was a 20 year old having to go through a heart transplant surgery?  She should be out enjoying her sophomore year in college not undergoing a major surgery. 

I remember thinking, praying, and constantly checking facebook for updates the day of her surgery. Her sister, Amanda, actually created a page on the caringbridge website, which she posts updates on Liz on a regular basis.  I remember reading the post titled, “Elizabeth’s Story”, and tears constantly streamed down my face. The strength that Liz has in this journey is incredible.  Not only is she NOT questioning why this has happened to her, she believes it was part of God’s plan for her. WOW! As I’m writing this right now I cannot hold back the tears.  I’m in awe of her and the strength that she has. Having to go through such a huge event at such a young age and having that much courage is inspiring.

When I think of what I’ve been through with having a heart attack it’s nothing compared to what Liz has been through. Liz, you are such an inspiration to me more than you will ever know. Through your strength, courage, and determination, I find myself gaining the strength and courage. I cannot thank you enough for that.  Not only are you an inspiration to me but you has become my role model.  I hope one day I can have as much faith, courage, strength, and determination as you do. Keep fighting girl! 

Through you, I’ll find that courage and strength to get me through my cardiologist appointment on Tuesday.

We all know that prayer is such a powerful thing, so I ask you all to say an extra prayer tonight for Liz and her family.