Thorough but frustrating

Good Wednesday evening to y’all. I just settled in from a long day of work and an intense Zumba workout. I haven’t been to a Zumba class since I moved to Virginia and it sure did feel good to get back into it. I may not be all that coordinated and look a bit on the silly side but it’s a workout that I enjoy. Taking out the frustrations of my day with some dancing and jumping is one of my favorite ways to release that bundled up energy. I highly recommend the class to anyone and everyone.

In my last post I had mentioned that I had a cardiologist appointment on Tuesday of this week, well I’d like to discuss that appointment and the cascading events in this post. Again, my overall goal of my blog is to bring awareness regarding heart issues and reasons why it’s so incredibly important to keep your heart healthy. I’ve got a bit off track with keeping my heart healthy and I’m ashamed of myself. I hope through this post about this week’s events will stress to everyone how important it is to stay healthy. I know I cannot stop a heart attack from happening, but I do know that I can do everything in my power to make my body as healthy as I can; everyone can.

I met with my cardiologist on Tuesday morning and I was extremely nervous. I was not only meeting a new doctor but it was also my 18 month checkup. Wow. I cannot believe it’s been 18 months since that day, the day that my life changed. Prior to the appointment, I was fighting with my anxiety.  I always get extremely anxious before my appointments. As I was sitting in the waiting room, I felt a sense of calmness overcome me. I can’t explain why or how this happened, it just did. It was the weirdest but most amazing feeling ever. I’m just going to say it was the man upstairs.

So, I finally was called back by the nurse and went into the exam room. The nurse was extremely friendly and that also calmed the nerves. We briefly discussed my history and an EKG was performed. The cardiologist finally came in and I also discussed the history with her. She was in utter shock with the fact that a 24 year old had a heart attack. She questioned why I had the heart attack but I told her the doctors in Indianapolis chalked it up to “bad luck”.  She didn’t like this answer.

After a quick exam (listening to lungs & heart), she said that everything sounded good. She also said my EKG looked good as well. My pulse was a little on the high side, but she agreed with me that it was most likely from the nerves. If she wasn’t concerned about it, there was no need for me to be.  The game plan for what she wanted to do was discussed next. Her biggest question was why I had the heart attack and since no one could figure it out, she said she was determined to. I cannot tell you how good that was to hear. I must say that I’m beyond frustrated with my previous doctor in Indy for just saying it was “bad luck”. I want an answer and I’m now hopeful that she may figure it out.

With wanting to know the answer comes more tests. Not only is she trying to find out the answers but also wants a thorough check.  I understand why she wants this but this is where my frustration comes into play. Maybe I’m just being my stubborn self, which is most likely true, but having to have more tests done just reminds me that I did have a heart attack. I think there is some fear with this as well.  I’m afraid something will be found. I must remind myself that everything will be just fine and that I’d much rather know if something is wrong now then to find out when it’s too late.

She referred me to a hematologist and I have that appointment tomorrow morning. She would like to rule out blood clotting disorders. I will have an echocardiogram done in two weeks, which is a pretty normal test to have done. Before I left the office, I had to have a series of blood tests done; the basic blood work (red/white blood cell counts, liver & kidney functions, diabetes, and cholesterol). She called me this morning and told me my results: everything was normal except the liver and cholesterol. She stated that my liver test results were a little on the high side. She didn’t understand why it was high but said she would wait a little bit and retest it again in a month and a half.  

I had a feeling my bad cholesterol would be high and I was right. I’m ashamed of myself because of it. I’ve had high cholesterol before and was on medication for it. However, due to horrible side effects (muscle aches) I was taken off of it. My cardiologist felt that it was important to get back on medication to get it under control. I’m going to be trying a different medication and hoping that I don’t have the severe side effects from it. I’m ashamed of myself because I know that I can be eating better and helping myself with the cholesterol problem. I mentioned before in this post that I’ve got a bit off track with keeping my heart healthy and this is why. I know that I need to improve my eating habits and this was an eye-opener. I’m trying my hardest to be able to get off the medications and to have to be prescribed another one, which I could potentially have prevented, is shameful and frustrating. I’m going to get myself back to eating healthy and hopefully be able to get off, and remain off, the medication.

I know that eating healthy is hard. But I do not want to have more problems because of eating poorly. I’ll be damned to let plaque buildup and cause another heart attack. I know I do not have control over everything but I do have control on my health. I hope through my frustrations and anger with myself, someone will realize how important it is eat healthy and exercise. Do NOT let yourself have a heart attack because of poor eating habits; your heart doesn’t deserve that and you don’t deserve to go through it.

My cardiologist explained that after she gets all the results from all of the tests, she will decide how to proceed forward. I feel completely comfortable with my new doctor and hopeful she will find the answers to the unknown questions. For the first time, I can honestly say that I have sincere trust with my doctor and know that I’m back on the right track with the journey of making my heart healthy again.